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[tamarag]

Oh elena I am so so sorry for your loss. Please PM me if you need anything.
:bighugs:

[canadianbakers]

Thanks guys.
The bleeding didn't really progress like I thought it would - really just red spotting through the late morning and early afternoon, stopped from about 3pm on, but just came again now, same red spotting. So while it's not the bleeding I expected (yet), I'm sure it is a loss. I just don't like that it's carrying on - just start and get it over with.

I'm having a stupid rough time of it. I would think the 4th time would be... I dunno, easier somehow? But for some reason I was convincing myself that surely it wouldn't happen again and everything would be fine. It's just crushing me.
It's always hard to make a choice in the midst of things... but I do remember the time TTC Levi, the 3 losses that came, and I don't know if I'm strong enough right now to go through that again. I am debating going to my Dr at the beginning of next week for bc pills. Even just taking them for 6 months would give me that time to gain strength and courage to face this again. Obviously I'll be thinking about it more over the weekend.

[VibrantBlue]

I am so sorry, Elena. You are in my thoughts

I wish I had more advice to offer you, but please know we are here to listen and to give a shoulder to lean upon when you need it.

[canadianbakers]

Thanks Jessica.

The support and kind words and hugs from you mamas mean so much.
All night there was nothing again. This morning a bit of pink/red spotting when wiping. But nothing more. No cramping. More nausea than I was feeling a few days ago, but I'm attributing that to stress and worry.
I don't understand why it's taking this long to really start. When I've m/c'ed before it's always just started and started, kwim? When it started with brown spotting it was heavier and darker within hours, crampy and heavy bleeding with lots of clots by the following day, passed everything and then went to "normal" AF bleeding for the rest of the week.
Like I said, I just wish this would start and get over and done with so I can move on. This little bit of spotting is silly and nerve wracking. I don't want to get or keep my hopes up, and in my head I know this is a m/c... but my heart keeps saying "what if".
I don't like this "wait and see" game.

And I started a July thread. For myself I suppose