Hard pregnancy lead to ppd
I ladies. I am getting concerned about depression. I'm wondering what I should do about it or if these feelings are normal. I've been down on bedrest with severe back pain since the end of November. I'm feeling overwhelmed and tired. I'm getting a bit better but then will have a set back. It's tough on dh because he is trying to puck up the slack. I feel guilty. I can't work so my income is gone and I'm unable to take care of dd so we now pay for daycare. :/ I'm done with all of this. I cried yesterday for a few hours. When I got my tylenol I poured out too many and a fleeting thought of suicide was in my head. That really scares me. I've never even had a remote thought about that before. I'm worried that since the pregnancy has been so tough I won't love this baby enough. I feel like I will blame her for the pain. I doubt that I will but I am concerned about it. Should I be talking to my midwife? What can I do to get out of this funk? I want to be excited and happy. I don't want to be crying everyday anymore. :/ thanks for your help.