I'm sort of a forum crasher, I'm currently a most-of-the-time sahm doing part time doula work and planning on starting school in a few years to do nursing. So I haven't been where you are as a mom. BUT - my mom was a wohm my entire life. So from the kid's perspective I wanted to encourage you. :-) I saw my mom work her tail off my entire life with long hours. I did miss her, but I also knew without a doubt that she loved me and that she worked as hard as she did because she had to provide for us. And I'm really proud of her and the model of sacrifice and hard work that she provided for me. :-).