Irrational fear?

[Andbabymakes2]

I don't know what's going on with me! I am feeling so negative about this pg. Not like I don't want it negative, more like waiting for it to end negative. Not sure why I have this feeling. I had two chems back to back before conceiving DS. Both times I would test + on 14dpo and the next day start spotting. So this time around I've had good signs, no spotting. WHY am I feeling like this baby isn't going to make it?? I keep thinking about all the things I need to buy, but then I tell myself I should wait, jic. That's just horrible, I know. Maybe it's my age? Or b/c this child hasn't been well received by others in my family. I'm still waiting on ins to be approved so I can make an appt and do an u/s too.


I know that several of you are pg with rainbows, so I am sure you can relate. But this isn't a rainbow baby, I don't think I have any real reason for feeling like this. It's really making me depressed too.

[missydawn]

I am having a hard time with this one getting excited about it, and now with awful morning sickness I am even less excited. I am thinking because this is baby number four could be why as well. Know you are not alone.

[iwiamandaiwi]

maybe it is residual anxiety from your chemical pregnancies. I don't think it is anything to beat yourself up over. Maybe if you go out and buy something for the new bean then it will help you to accept the pregnancy as reality. or maybe you just need time. You are still in your first trimester right? just give yoursefl at least until you are in your second and then reanalyze your feelings

[sisu]

You certainly aren't alone, I hope knowing that helps. I've never had a loss but I'm still afraid to get at attached to the baby. It's been this way for all my pregnancies.

[Andbabymakes2]

I'm glad to know I am not alone. Also makes me sad that we are feeling this too. I've never felt this way before other than briefly with ds. But this is still different. I'm sure my hormones are all over the place anyways, so that doesn't help, lol. Going to suck it up and pray for the best, huh?

[lalakiwi7]

i still check for blood every time I wipe...... or analyze every cramp... it's hard for sure. I am committed to this pregnancy but it's also hard to not be nervous. One day at a time is my motto these days. That is all I can do.

[momto2princesses]

Yes. You're definitely not alone. I am completely paranoid and really don't feel attached to this baby much yet. It makes me sad because with my girls I just remember how happy I was to be pregnant, but after two losses, I just don't feel that way anymore. I'm hoping that this will change once I get a bit further along.

[Andbabymakes2]

Originally Posted by lalakiwi7 i still check for blood every time I wipe...... or analyze every cramp... it's hard for sure. I am committed to this pregnancy but it's also hard to not be nervous. One day at a time is my motto these days. That is all I can do.

Me too.

[BeastMasterMama]

Originally Posted by MarchMama2010 You certainly aren't alone, I hope knowing that helps. I've never had a loss but I'm still afraid to get at attached to the baby. It's been this way for all my pregnancies.

^yep

Originally Posted by lalakiwi7 i still check for blood every time I wipe...... or analyze every cramp... it's hard for sure. I am committed to this pregnancy but it's also hard to not be nervous. One day at a time is my motto these days. That is all I can do.

me too,
Was just talking about this to some friends today. I remember feeling uncertain with my prior pregnancies, too, though, just barely, I can't wait until Feb when we get to hear the heartbeat! Then I will worry slightly less...

[divergirldee]

My mw says "there's no such thing as a 'chemical pregnancy.' You're either pregnant or not, and every loss is a loss." So especially since you're saying you keep checking for spotting every time you wipe, you sound like you're nervous from 2 previous losses. Praying this little one sticks and you can get more excited