Diaper Swappers

katykat · 11-29-2012, 04:22 PM

At 8 weeks I went in for my dating ultrasound. I was 9 days off, so I was actually 6 weeks 5 days. Thought that was weird but there was a good heartbeat and everything looked good. So happy. So relieved. Then I spotted a few days later bright red then brown and it scared the crap out of me. Lasted only that one day and the midwife said sometimes that happens and not to worry unless it got heavy or painful. Then the following thursday (Thanksgiving) right after I announced that I was pregnant to my entire family I started spotting again. Brown. Light. It lasted 4 days. I called the midwife at day 2 and she said to wait and watch and make an appointment for Monday (of course this happens over a holiday weekend). Then on day 4 I called again, terrified. She told me to go in to the ER just to ease my mind and get a rhogam shot (I'm o-). They did an u/s and didn't find a heartbeat. I was shocked and numb. I was totally convinced that the doctor was wrong. I went in the following day for a follow up at my midwife's office, and they did another u/s and no heartbeat. It felt like my whole world caved in. I still was somehow hopeful that they were wrong. They took a blood sample and my hormone levels were dropping. I lost the baby. I still can't believe it. I chose to have a D&C which was yesterday. I am a complete disaster. I can't do anything but cry. I am blessed to have an amazing husband and 18 month old who help but still I just cry. All my hopes and dreams for my new little bug that I wanted soooo badly. I am trying to remember that things happen the way they need to and I can't see that right now and have faith that I'll conceive again soon, but I'm terrified and just so sad......

stevensmom · 11-29-2012, 04:23 PM

Resellmybelle · 11-29-2012, 04:27 PM

I am so sorry! My heart just breaks for you. Let yourself grieve, be good to yourself.

doulamomma · 11-29-2012, 04:46 PM

So sorry. (((hugs)))

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KatieB621 · 11-29-2012, 06:43 PM

I'm soooooo very sorry mama! I never heard the heartbeats of the babies that I lost, so I can only imagine how much harder it is to have heard it. Big

! Take care of yourself, let yourself grieve, and then TTC again.

erin_c_odonnell · 11-29-2012, 06:48 PM

am_ryan21 · 11-29-2012, 06:55 PM

I could have written your post myself except I didn't have a child when I had mine. We thought once we heard the heartbeat everything would be ok. I just wanted to tell you to cry all you need to and that it will get better even though right now it doesn't feel that way. If you need to talk to someone who has btdt you can pm me.

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RainandRedemption · 11-29-2012, 07:06 PM

Im sorry

MrsGinCamarillo · 11-29-2012, 07:16 PM

I'm so sorry

pine_apple_goat · 11-29-2012, 07:38 PM

mama.

11-29-2012, 04:22 PM	#1
katykat Registered Users Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: WA Posts: 40 Ratings: 1 Feedback: 100%	Devastated At 8 weeks I went in for my dating ultrasound. I was 9 days off, so I was actually 6 weeks 5 days. Thought that was weird but there was a good heartbeat and everything looked good. So happy. So relieved. Then I spotted a few days later bright red then brown and it scared the crap out of me. Lasted only that one day and the midwife said sometimes that happens and not to worry unless it got heavy or painful. Then the following thursday (Thanksgiving) right after I announced that I was pregnant to my entire family I started spotting again. Brown. Light. It lasted 4 days. I called the midwife at day 2 and she said to wait and watch and make an appointment for Monday (of course this happens over a holiday weekend). Then on day 4 I called again, terrified. She told me to go in to the ER just to ease my mind and get a rhogam shot (I'm o-). They did an u/s and didn't find a heartbeat. I was shocked and numb. I was totally convinced that the doctor was wrong. I went in the following day for a follow up at my midwife's office, and they did another u/s and no heartbeat. It felt like my whole world caved in. I still was somehow hopeful that they were wrong. They took a blood sample and my hormone levels were dropping. I lost the baby. I still can't believe it. I chose to have a D&C which was yesterday. I am a complete disaster. I can't do anything but cry. I am blessed to have an amazing husband and 18 month old who help but still I just cry. All my hopes and dreams for my new little bug that I wanted soooo badly. I am trying to remember that things happen the way they need to and I can't see that right now and have faith that I'll conceive again soon, but I'm terrified and just so sad......

11-29-2012, 04:23 PM	#2
stevensmom Moderator Squeeze your own darn cheeks Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: a little place called Home Posts: 34,516 Ratings: 368 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: Devastated __________________ Erica , wife to Ben, momma to Steven aka Boo11/30/06 & Emily aka MonkeyBuns9/11/10 "Opidy" joining the crew August 2013 Forever in my heart, always on my mind (3.09, 5.09, 12.11)...."Life's too short to buy green bananas" Swag with me! I've made over $520 in amazon gift cards & $225 in paypal

11-29-2012, 04:27 PM	#3
Resellmybelle Registered Users Join Date: Sep 2011 Location: Grand Prairie, TX 75052 If I owe you feedback, please PM me a reminder! Posts: 2,335 Ratings: 105 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: Devastated I am so sorry! My heart just breaks for you. Let yourself grieve, be good to yourself. __________________ michelle, mama to ariana (13) my trade postmegaroo'sbrighton white leather tote

11-29-2012, 04:46 PM	#4
doulamomma Registered Users Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: Ohio Posts: 2,546 Ratings: 26 Feedback: 100%	So sorry. (((hugs))) Sent from my droid __________________ Lora, wife to Aaron, mom to Ella-6, Ava-4, Olivia-2, Weston 6 wks , babywearing, homebirthing, , tandem nursing, selective delayed vax, doula I sell SCENTSY!!!Labor and delivery resources HERE ISO yellow and red gmd workhorses

11-29-2012, 06:43 PM	#5
KatieB621 Registered Users Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Claxton, GA Posts: 1,417 My Mood:	Re: Devastated I'm soooooo very sorry mama! I never heard the heartbeats of the babies that I lost, so I can only imagine how much harder it is to have heard it. Big ! Take care of yourself, let yourself grieve, and then TTC again. __________________ ~Katie B.~ Devoted wife of Cory , SAHM to Sadie (8/12/10), Eli (11/24/11) , with #3 It's a Girl! and waiting to meet 2 Children God is keeping for us until we get there

11-29-2012, 06:48 PM	#6
erin_c_odonnell Registered Users Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: North Carolina Posts: 2,675 Ratings: 44 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: Devastated __________________ Erin- Helpmeet to David, Deaf. Reformed Christian. Homeschooling. SAHM to 5 on earth, 3 in eternity. ISO: DESPERATELY want size 10 Ladder Hill Design bed wetting pants!!!