Diaper Swappers

themrshunt · 11-30-2012, 08:38 AM

UPDATE: it's the month for twins.

This is totally random and choppy. I am hoping that just getting it out will help me deal.

Today is my dating ultrasound

which is good but I am a total emotional wreck today. This baby was not planned, we were NTNP, not unwanted but is coming at a weird time. I had moved on in my thinking that it would be a while before we had another baby so we are buying a small farm and I was getting excited about starting that and getting to do things you can't with a tiny baby since DS is almost 2.
I am really scared that they are going to find two babies in there today. DH has been joking with me from the start that we were having twins. Add that to the fact that I have been so much sicker so much sooner this time and I am about to go crazy. My sister had twins 3 years ago and she did great but watching her I don't know that I could handle it.
I just don't know how to feel about this baby. I don't want to say I resent it because that just makes me sound like an awful person. We tried for what felt like forever to have DS and now that God has blessed us with another one I am struggling to be thankful.
I have tried to tell DH how I am feeling but it is hard to put into words. He is already so over worked and then he comes home and has to be the single parent for the evening and I hate to put anymore on him. He was/ is ready for another baby and I thought I was until the stick turned pink. Thankfully I have many months to get excited and in a good mental spot because right now I am so blah that I just want to go get and epidural ASAP when labor starts and be done with it (and I am a HUGE natural childbirth advocate).

Heather8183 · 11-30-2012, 08:41 AM

I think a lot of moms feel this way...I know I wanted both of my kids so badly but cried when I got a bfp, afraid I wouldn't be a good enough mom, etc. This time, God had a sense of humor and I got in the office Wednesday and they did find twins. I'm totally in shock, still, but what an incredible blessing. Try not to stress until you know there are 2, and even then, everything will be fine!

erin_c_odonnell · 11-30-2012, 08:44 AM

just take it one step at a time, one day at a time and enjoy the u/s today

waterisntsomething · 11-30-2012, 08:54 AM

Hugs! A good friend once told me theres a reason we have 9 months to prepare ourselves beforehand. Just let yourself feel however you need to feel...it seems fitting to get the negative emotions out of the way in the first trimester along with the crappy symptoms.

snugglesnsunshine · 11-30-2012, 09:00 AM

You're NOT a terrible person. I have some of those feelings, mainly because youngest is almost 9 months and I'm just still very into her. I'm hoping my milk doesn't dry up. I have 3 kids 4 and under now (along with 3 older ones).
Really bad morning sickness can make us feel crappy about the whole process and I bet that's got something to do with it.
Whether you find twins or just one, I will bet that by the time you give birth, you won't ever know how you ever lived without her/him/them!
Feel better, mama!

qsefthuko · 11-30-2012, 09:10 AM

We suffered infertility for many years. There are 8 years between our younger 2. I adjusted to not having more kids. Our lives were now geared toward having older kids. I was working a good job, great benefits(think 5 weeks vacation plus sick days the first year). I very unexpectedly became pregnant. I definitely had mixed feelings despite having wanted a baby for so long. Now I am anxious for another one.

mcpforever · 11-30-2012, 09:11 AM

I totally, completely, thoroughly understand. Hopefully, today will give you at least a direction to start in your thinking. At least that's what I keep telling myself about this coming Tuesday. I think it's easier for our husbands to not think about it so much because it's not happening in their bodies. Out of sight, out of mind.

themrshunt · 11-30-2012, 09:20 AM

Wow! Y'all are amazing. I am so glad I am not the only one that feels this way. My ultrasound is at 1:30 and I will let y'all know how it goes.

3 ladybugs · 11-30-2012, 09:32 AM

I hope your ultrasound goes well! I had one today too but I am still way early.

3 ladybugs · 11-30-2012, 02:37 PM

Congratulations on twins! I hope you have an easy pregnancy!

11-30-2012, 08:38 AM	#1
themrshunt Registered Users Formerly: NNGBNFM Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: TN Posts: 717 Ratings: 12 Feedback: 100%	Update with ultrasound UPDATE: it's the month for twins. This is totally random and choppy. I am hoping that just getting it out will help me deal. Today is my dating ultrasound which is good but I am a total emotional wreck today. This baby was not planned, we were NTNP, not unwanted but is coming at a weird time. I had moved on in my thinking that it would be a while before we had another baby so we are buying a small farm and I was getting excited about starting that and getting to do things you can't with a tiny baby since DS is almost 2. I am really scared that they are going to find two babies in there today. DH has been joking with me from the start that we were having twins. Add that to the fact that I have been so much sicker so much sooner this time and I am about to go crazy. My sister had twins 3 years ago and she did great but watching her I don't know that I could handle it. I just don't know how to feel about this baby. I don't want to say I resent it because that just makes me sound like an awful person. We tried for what felt like forever to have DS and now that God has blessed us with another one I am struggling to be thankful. I have tried to tell DH how I am feeling but it is hard to put into words. He is already so over worked and then he comes home and has to be the single parent for the evening and I hate to put anymore on him. He was/ is ready for another baby and I thought I was until the stick turned pink. Thankfully I have many months to get excited and in a good mental spot because right now I am so blah that I just want to go get and epidural ASAP when labor starts and be done with it (and I am a HUGE natural childbirth advocate). Attached Thumbnails __________________ Whitney - married to P Mommy to N Last edited by themrshunt; 11-30-2012 at 01:36 PM.

11-30-2012, 08:41 AM	#2
Heather8183 Registered Users Join Date: Jun 2007 Posts: 9,251 Ratings: 443 Feedback: 100%	Re: I am a terrible person I think a lot of moms feel this way...I know I wanted both of my kids so badly but cried when I got a bfp, afraid I wouldn't be a good enough mom, etc. This time, God had a sense of humor and I got in the office Wednesday and they did find twins. I'm totally in shock, still, but what an incredible blessing. Try not to stress until you know there are 2, and even then, everything will be fine! __________________ Heather-mama to H (6) K (3) and joining us in late June My ES ISO/IHA list For the Love... My WAHM Wares

11-30-2012, 08:44 AM	#3
erin_c_odonnell Registered Users Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: North Carolina Posts: 2,673 Ratings: 44 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: I am a terrible person just take it one step at a time, one day at a time and enjoy the u/s today __________________ Erin- Helpmeet to David, Deaf. Reformed Christian. Homeschooling. SAHM to 5 on earth, 3 in eternity. ISO: DESPERATELY want size 10 Ladder Hill Design bed wetting pants!!!

11-30-2012, 08:54 AM	#4
waterisntsomething Registered Users Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: Virginia Posts: 2,729 Ratings: 16 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: I am a terrible person Hugs! A good friend once told me theres a reason we have 9 months to prepare ourselves beforehand. Just let yourself feel however you need to feel...it seems fitting to get the negative emotions out of the way in the first trimester along with the crappy symptoms. __________________ Hilary, loving Charles , mama to Charlie 1-21-12 Sweet Bunny Bottoms Upcycled woolies available on Facebook and Etsy! http://www.facebook.com/pages/Sweet-...8887177?ref=hl http://www.etsy.com/shop/sweetbunnywool

11-30-2012, 09:00 AM	#5
snugglesnsunshine Registered Users Formerly: lovinmomma24 Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 912 Ratings: 68 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: I am a terrible person You're NOT a terrible person. I have some of those feelings, mainly because youngest is almost 9 months and I'm just still very into her. I'm hoping my milk doesn't dry up. I have 3 kids 4 and under now (along with 3 older ones). Really bad morning sickness can make us feel crappy about the whole process and I bet that's got something to do with it. Whether you find twins or just one, I will bet that by the time you give birth, you won't ever know how you ever lived without her/him/them! Feel better, mama! __________________ Homeschooling Momma to 18 yo DD, 15yo DS , 13 yo DD, 5yoDD,3 yo DD, 1 yo DD , 6 angels I'll get to see in Heaven one day, and expecting #7 July,2013

11-30-2012, 02:37 PM	#10
3 ladybugs Registered Users Join Date: May 2008 Location: New Jersey Posts: 10,753 Ratings: 6 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: Update with ultrasound Congratulations on twins! I hope you have an easy pregnancy! __________________ Jennifer (36) - When DH and I got married in Dec. of 2003, he said "in sickness, health, to death". What he didn't know was we would loose 3 children, have a miscarriage, have a living son and have me battle cancer all before our 7th anniversary! Cancer free 24...28..32...36..Nathaniel Harlow Read story here or here.